Today I lost my dad. I can remember it like it was yesterday that Mamaw, Leslie, and Aunt Sue came and got me out of school early and took me to Davy Crocket State Park to tell me that my dad had passed away. It's weird how some parts of that day and week, I can remember very vividly, but I cannot remember the last time I told my dad I loved him or even hugged him. It was probably after talking to him the night before, but I don't remember it.
Through this 12 years, I have had my ups and downs. I know that people say in time it gets easier, and when it's fresh, you don't want to believe it, but it does. I find that I have finally processed my dad's death. For years after his death, on this day I would go into a dark place that I would go off on people that I loved dearly. Thank You Mamaw for dealing with these dark times. I know your watching over me with Mom and Dad now.
With that being said, I will always miss my dad, and I still have those days. I think as I get older and life moments like getting married and have children, I will have those days for your parents are suppose to see you get married and see their grandchildren born. The saddest thing is that I don't know how many stories I will be able to pass down to my children about their grandfather and grandmother for my memories of them are starting to fade.
In Memory of Dad and Mom,
--Jamie
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