Book I want to read in 2014

These are the books that are currently out that I want to read for next year.

• finish The Mortal Instrument Series By Cassandra Clare *
• finish Delirium Series by Lauren Oliver *
• Allegiant by Veronica Roth (the last in the Divergent trilogy) ^
• finish Eve Series by Anna Carey *
• Revealed (House of Night novel) by PC and Kristin Cast ^
• Harry Potter Series. -I have never read it.

*only read the first book of the series.
^I have read the entire series and it's the lastest book to come out.

Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.

Books I Read in 2013.

One of my goals this year was to read 75 books this year, but to unseen future, I was only able to read 29 books this year. 2-12 I read over 50 book. Since I am in college I have set a goal of reading 25 books during the year. All these books are books that I read for fun. NOT books I read for classes.  These books are in the order that I read them in.

1. The Vampire Diaries: The Return:Midnight By:LJ Smith
2. Safe Haven By Nicholas Sparks *
3. Cut by Patricia McCormick *
4. Radiance By Alyson Noel
5. The Choice by Nicholas Sparks
6. The Best of Me By Nicolas Sparks
7. Bloodlines By Richelle Mead
8. The Golden Lily By Richelle Mead
9. Reached By Ally Condie
10. Sweet Little Lies By Lauren Conrad
11. Sugar and Spice By Lauren Conrad
12. True Believer By Nicholas Sparks
13. BirthMarked By Caragh M. O'Brien
14. Speak By Laurie Halse Anderson
15. prized by Caragh M. O'Brien
16. promised by Caragh M. O'Brien
17. Beautiful Creatures by  Kami Garcia and Margaret Stohl 
18. beneath the glitter by Elle and Blair Fowler
19. The short second life of Bree Tanner By Stephanie Meyer
20. Vampire Kisses by Ellen Schneiber
21. Whip It by Shauna Cross
22. The Host by Stephanie Meyer *
23. Riding Lessons by Sara Gruen *
24. Beautiful Darkness by Kami Garcia and Margaret Stohl 
25. Pretty Little Liars by Sara Shepard *
26. Flawless by Sara Shepard *
27. Sever by Lauren DeStefano
28. eve by Anna Carey
29. The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones By Cassandra Clare

As you can see I read a lot of Young Adult Novels. My favorite genre right now is Dystopian Fiction Young Adult Novels. I do also love Nicholas Spark Novels, and I have read almost ever novel he has written. I think there are maybe 5 of his I have not read.
I have not bought all these books. Most I get at my local library. When I am more financially stable I will probably buy most of these. The ones with a * by them, I do own, but a couple of those will be traded in for credit at a used book store. I rarely  buy new books, unless it's a book that I have been waiting to come out, and it's not available at the used book store or at the library. Some of these books I have bought and already traded back into the books store. One day, I want a library with floor to ceiling books.

Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.

2013 in review.

I can't believe today is the last day of 2013. So much has happened this year, and it's just hard to believe it's over.

Last year I set some goals for my self. Yes, they were resolutions, and I didn't maintain most of them. I did keep one. The one that I kept was writing. I wanted to write something everyday, and I was able to keep that up this year. One thing I was upset that I didn't accomplish was being able to read 75 books this year. At the turn of the new year, I was reading two books a week, and could have easily read it, but first we moved and I slowed my pace when I started to pack and unpack. Then I started back to school so I didn't read a whole lot.

We did a lot of traveling this year, but stayed in state.  We went to Pigeon Forge a lot. I haven't been there in over three years. Also we went to Cades Cove this year. It have been going on 10 plus years since I had been.

Lily is getting so big. I can't believe how much she has changed in a year. She is talking all the time, and becoming miss independent. She's 2 going on 16.

2013 was better than 2012 was, but 2012 I also lost mamaw, and I can't believe she has been gone for almost 2 years. I hope 2014 will be better then 2014.

Peaceful and Happy thoughts,
--Rue.

30 years ago.

The story is famous in my family, and it has been told several times. My mom went with my aunt, my mamaw, and my cousin to get carpet in Georgia for my aunt's house that she was building. They all pack in my Papaw's and Mamaw's brand new Red F150 Ford Truck. What happened on the trip they didn't expect. An ice storm hit, and they were STUCK in traffic. They saw someone jump over a guard rail to use the bathroom, but instead of landing they slipped down the hill. They ended up having to spend the night on the interstate.My mom was freaking out. She was crying her eyes out. It wasn't because she was scared, but it was because she thought my dad would think she didn't want to get married anymore. My mom and dad were suppose to be getting married. This was during  a time when there were no cell phones.

This was thirty years ago. My parents were married on December 28, 1983. I don't know much about what happened at their wedding, but I do know my mom didn't wear white. She wore a mint green dress, that I happen to have, and will someday be in my wedding if I ever get married. I know they didn't get married in a church, but I have no idea who attended. I have always thought that it was just the two of them, a justice of the peace, and a witness, but I have never heard anything about their wedding.

My Mom and Dad are not here to celebrate their wedding anniversary. They only got to celebrate 10 of them on this earth together, but I believe they are in heaven today celebrating their 30th wedding anniversary.

Mom and Dad on their wedding day.

I love and miss you Mom and Dad.

Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.

Merry Christmas!!!

I hope everyone has a safe and Merry Christmas. Enjoy the time with your family and friends.

Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue

Christmas Wish List!!!

Here is my wish list for Christmas this year:

🎄Good Health
⛄ Being with my family and friends
☮Peace
❤️Love
😊 Happiness
❄White Christmas

You may think this is cheesy, but it's actually what I want. I don't care about getting Christmas gifts.

Peaceful and Happy thoughts,
--Rue.

Dreaming of a White Christmas

When my dad was alive every year I would ask him what he wanted for Christmas. Each year his response was the same. He wanted a White Christmas. Here, we rarely have a White Christmas, but since he has died we have had a White Christmas a few times. He has been gone for 11 years.

The first Christmas without him, we had a White Christmas, and it brought me to tears. For years, all he wanted was a White Christmas, and the year he died, there was one. With this White Christmas, I thought it was a sign from him telling me that I would be ok and that he was watching over me. For this was the first year that I on my Christmas Wish List, I asked for a White Christmas. I was 13, and every year since, I have asked for a White Christmas. It's a way to keep my memory of my dad alive. Also  everytime I hear "Dreaming of  a White Christmas" I cry for it reminds me of my dad, and his dream of a White Christmas.

This year it's not looking like we are going to have a White Christmas, but it's still on my wish list. Who knows we may have a freak snow storm, and have a White Christmas.


Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,

--Rue.

I Guess I Was Homeless?

In the song "Back to Me Without You" by The Band Perry has a line that says "If its true home is where the heart is. I guess now I'm homeless."

These lyrics ring home to me. When I moved in with my cousin a little more than a year and a half ago, I didn't feel like I was home. I felt like I was a visitor, even with my room set up and a space of my own. I was puzzled, because after being there for month I still felt like a visitor in her home. Also this wasn't the first time my cousin and I had lived together. This went on for several months, and then one day it hit me like a cement truck. It was because my mamaw was there. Home had always been where my mamaw was  since I was 5 years old. See I had moved in with my cousin on the day that my mamaw had died, and the week before she had died, my mamaw and I had been staying with my cousin.

My home was technically not gone. Yes, I had a roof over my head, and a bed to call my own, but it wasn't home. As I said home had always been where mamaw was, and now she was gone.

It took me a while to feel at home. But my heart had to heal from being heart broken from losing my mamaw. Let me say, it wasn't nothing my cousin was doing, she tried everything to make me feel at home, it was just a state of mind. It was apart of my grieving process. I had just lost another parent figure in my life. Today, I feel just fine and at home, but it did take me a few months.

When I heard The Band Perry song, which isn't really about death, it's more about a break up, but parts of the song spoke to me about losing a loved one. Isn't a death sort of like a break up though?

Have you ever felt like you were a visitor in a place that was suppose to be your home?

Peaceful and Happy Thought,
--Rue

I am sick and tired of...

DUCK DYNASTY! I can't go one day without seeing something about them, and I can't go into any store with out seeing something that has their name on it for sale. They even now have nail polish and beauty products.

Peaceful and Happy thoughts,
--Rue.

Fall Semester is OVER!

After being out of school for 2 years, this fall I went back to school. I am getting another bachlor's in History. It was the major that I intended to get when I went to college the first place, but at Berea, the history department required a foreign language, and I couldn't for the life of me get a foreign language down. I took both Spanish and German and made D's in both classes. These were the first D's in my life ever. During this time, I discovered Women's Studies, and I was in a time a discovery in my life. I had decided that I did not want to become a lawyer, and wanted to be a social worker, so I changed my major.

I do not regret my decision on becoming a Women's Studies major, and I learned who I really was during my classes. I decided though it was my passion, and I still want to do all the things that I wanted to do at Berea, but I also want to follow another passion of mine that my mamaw pointed out to me when I was 18, but being an 18 year old, I did not take her advise.

She told me I should have studied education, and be a teacher. I was a stubborn 18 year, and didn't want her to tell me what I should do with the rest of my life. Well, I should have listened to her. I am going back for education.

This semester was an adjustment. Public college is totally different than private (blog post about that soon). Also I had to work around a full time job and taking care of a two year old. It's totally different.

But I did fairly well. Two As and a B. I only took 9 credited hours, so I was three short of being full time, but next semester I am taking 13 credited hours. With 7 hours being online. I have never taken an online class, so this will be something new.

Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.

I stab myself

Its probably not the best idea to put knives in the dish water when your unable to see them. I stab myself Everytime I wash dishes because of this. You would think after the first couple of times I would stop but I don't. Luckily I haven't stabbed myself badly but I do need to stop

Peaceful and happy thoughts,

♥ rue

Finals Week Fall 2013 (December 9-13)

I forgot how stressful Finals are, but considering what I have, this year's finals are not the worst I have had. For next week, I have one exam, one true final that covers the whole semester, and one research paper that is suppose to be 9 to 10 pages, and of course I haven't started to study at all for this or started the paper. I am working on the paper today, but the tests are not going to be hard. I have the study guides for them. Like I said these finals are not that bad.

Hopefully next semester will be like this, but I can't be that lucky can I?

Wish me luck. I hope I can keep up posting daily through this week.

 

Oh, by the way, I am procrastinating right now to blog,  but why stop now, I have done it all semester.

Peaceful and happy thoughts,
♥Rue

Why?

The last couple of times that I have eaten peanut butter I have gotten a headache. I dont know why? When I was un college it did the same also when I ate peanuts. I love pb but I can't be having a headache all the time.

Peaceful and happy thoughts,

♥Rue

S*!t

Ok, here's the story. Over the last few years, I have started cussing a lot more in my life. It started while in high school, but when I moved to college, I started cussing A LOT more. I guess since I was away from home, and I had no one to tell my family what I was doing. When I moved back home, my filter did not go back up except for my mamaw. I never really cussed in front of my mamaw. I may have said a dozen cuss words in front of her my whole life. Now everyone I am with cusses, so it's almost comes natural. Even though they are just filler words or synonyms for better words.

Now, as you know, I take care of my cousin's two year old. Lily is now to the age that she is REPEATING EVERYTHING. Now at first, it was kind of funny. We would slip and say a cuss word in front of her, and she would repeat it. We would laugh, so she continued to repeat it. Each time, we all say that were going to have to watch what we say in front of her.

Now we are really going to have to stop cussing in front of her. Les told me yesterday, that Lily said S*!t in context not hearing it first. I know she doesn't know what it really means, but it's not good when a two year old is using that word with out hearing it first.

I am not cussing as much as I use to, and it's because of little ears that I have stopped. Now if she's not around, which is hardly ever, or I am texting, I still put a cuss word in. I am almost 25 years old, and I have went through the cussing phase of my life.

When I started cussing, it was as a rebellion. My mamaw had taught me it was wrong to cuss. She would say young ladies do not say those words. So I began cussing. You may ask, was it a rebellion if I did not cuss around her? Yes, it was in my mind. It moved out as a rebellion and became more of a normal thing for me, so it's hard to break it. You know what sometimes a cuss word gets your point across so much better especially in certain moods.

Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.

A little message from the girls bathroom door.

At school the other day, I saw this message posted on the bathroom door. I think it's a wonderful message so I had to take a picture of it. I am passing this on to you all.

 "Don't encourage suicide. Everyone has worth in this world"

Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.

Losing A Parent

November 30, 2013, Paul Walker and his friend, Roger Rodas lost their lives in a car accident. Paul Walker was one of my favorite actors, and I am shocked and saddened by his death. My thoughts and prayers are with both of their families and friends, but my prayers are especially with Paul Walker’s 15 year old daughter and if Roger Rodas had any children . I know how it is to lose a parent at an early age. If you know me personally you know I lost my parents at a young age. My mom passed away when I was only five years old, and 8 years later, when I was 13, my dad passed away.

It’s always hard to lose a parent, but it especially hard losing a parent when you are still a child. Your parents are supposed to see you grow up. See you graduate high school, get married, and etc. There is no way I can tell you on how to deal with a death of a parent. Everyone grieves differently. If I can give one piece of advice, find someone to talk to. Do not bottle up your feelings. I did not know what was going on when I was 5, but when my dad died, I was fully aware of it. My dad died right before summer break, so that summer I did absolutely nothing, and did not talk to anyone. I bottled my feelings up. It got to the point I became angry, and my mamaw, who did nothing wrong, got the brunt of my outburst. I blew up on her for nothing. She was only trying to help me, and I couldn’t at the time comprehend that. I even wrote that I hated her, and of course, she found it. I didn’t find out until I was older that she found it, and it hurt her. No matter how many times I said I was sorry, I could see the hurt on her face. I believe if I would have not bottled up my feelings, I would not have become angry therefore I wouldn’t have blown up on my mamaw. If you have lost a parent and have no one to talk to. Feel free to contact me by commenting down below or send me an email. I am a very good person to talk to. I tend to just let a person talk, and I will ask no questions.

Even though I know how it is to lose parent, I have no clue what Paul Walker’s daughter must be going through. Her dad’s death being splashed all over the internet and news. It has to make it harder than usual. I see the reports and I couldn’t image reading those things about my parents. This should be a private time for her and her family to grieve a death of a love one. Until here recently, I did not know all the details about my father’s passing. My family kept certain things from me because they knew at 13 I could not handle some of the details, but she can go on the internet and find out all the details, and see all the rumors about her death. She needs to remember her father for who she knew he was, not for what the news is reporting. I have said this time and time again when a celebrity dies and there is negative press about them, watch what you say people. Yes, they are celebrities, but they have family that are grieving and DO NOT need to read stuff like that.  People are insensitive sometimes. I don’t think they actually think about it before posting it.

Before this becomes a rant on social media (a whole different blog post) and lose this one’s intended meaning. I am going to wrap it up here. If you have lost a parent, you know how I feel about the loss of a parent. If your parents are still alive go give them a hug. Tell them what they mean to you. Call them if you haven’t talked to them in a while. You never know how long they are going to be here.

 Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,

--Rue. 

 

 

Legally Changing my Name

Last weekend, I post a Facebook status about legally changing my name. I thought I would explain what I meant on her.

Here recently I Have been thinking about changing my name. I am not going to change it drastically, or at least I don’t think it will. I will still be Jamie Sue. My last name just may be different. I am wanting to add my mom’s maiden name into my name. I am either going to hyphenate, make it another middle name, or I am going to make my current last name, another middle name. This is something that I have not decided on what I am going to be, but I do know that I want to add my mom’s maiden name.

Why am I wanting to do this? Well, I associate more with my mom’s side of the family, and feel closer to them. I don’t know my dad’s side of the family as well. Plus my mamaw, my mom’s mom, raised me. She raised me from the point I was 5 years old, and became my legal guardian when my dad passed away at 13. It’s a way to honor her memory as well.  I don’t really feel like my last name except my connection to my dad, and this is why I don’t want to get rid of my current last name all together. I was a daddy’s girl, even though was living with my mamaw when I was five years old and she raised me. I went to live with her because he thought it would be better for me to have a woman’s presence in my life. He lived right across the road from them, and I saw him every day. He also was still my dad. He had the final say so on everything. I just didn’t live with me. I loved my dad.

Now you may ask, why do you want to change your name now? What about when you get married? Well, I do not intend on changing my name when I get married. I want to keep my name, and I always have. I have said this for years, and I don’t think that it is going to change.

I will blog about my experience in legally changing my name. It’s not going to happen in the next month or so, but I am definitely going to be starting the process.

Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,

--Rue.

Rue

Hi, I am Jamie, but I go by Rue or if you’re my cousin’s two year old I’m YaYa. (No clue where she got that from). I am from East Tennessee, born and Raised, and I am still currently living there. I am months away from being a quarter of a century old, and going through my quarter life crisis. How about you follow me through this crisis.

I have been blogging online before it was considered blogging. I started online blogging with Myspace when it was still popular, and then moved to Facebook, but neither of them is what I wanted to do. So while I was in college, I started a Tumblr, which ended up not being what I thought it was. I then started a beauty blog after I graduated from college, which was about two years ago, http://ruesworld52.blogspot.com/ Where I showcase my nail polish collection. I am a Nail polish addict, and I own over 300 polishes.

I graduated college with my bachelors of arts in Women Studies in 2011. I work nights on the weekend so I can go to school, and help babysit my cousin’s two year old through the week. I am currently going back to school to get another bachelor’s degree in history. I am either going to teach or go to law school, which is what I originally wanted to do with my life.

I am going to try and blog five days a week, but I am not making any promises. With my beauty blog, I have tried to blog on a schedule, but I always end up not keeping it. With college, I am kind of busy, but like I said I am going to try. With winter break coming up, I will be able to do more.

Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,

--Rue.