S*!t

Ok, here's the story. Over the last few years, I have started cussing a lot more in my life. It started while in high school, but when I moved to college, I started cussing A LOT more. I guess since I was away from home, and I had no one to tell my family what I was doing. When I moved back home, my filter did not go back up except for my mamaw. I never really cussed in front of my mamaw. I may have said a dozen cuss words in front of her my whole life. Now everyone I am with cusses, so it's almost comes natural. Even though they are just filler words or synonyms for better words.

Now, as you know, I take care of my cousin's two year old. Lily is now to the age that she is REPEATING EVERYTHING. Now at first, it was kind of funny. We would slip and say a cuss word in front of her, and she would repeat it. We would laugh, so she continued to repeat it. Each time, we all say that were going to have to watch what we say in front of her.

Now we are really going to have to stop cussing in front of her. Les told me yesterday, that Lily said S*!t in context not hearing it first. I know she doesn't know what it really means, but it's not good when a two year old is using that word with out hearing it first.

I am not cussing as much as I use to, and it's because of little ears that I have stopped. Now if she's not around, which is hardly ever, or I am texting, I still put a cuss word in. I am almost 25 years old, and I have went through the cussing phase of my life.

When I started cussing, it was as a rebellion. My mamaw had taught me it was wrong to cuss. She would say young ladies do not say those words. So I began cussing. You may ask, was it a rebellion if I did not cuss around her? Yes, it was in my mind. It moved out as a rebellion and became more of a normal thing for me, so it's hard to break it. You know what sometimes a cuss word gets your point across so much better especially in certain moods.

Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.