Ugg... Spiders.

I absolutely hate spiders. I am actually I  am afraid of them.  It's an irrational fear. I have no clue why I have a fear of spiders. When I was 15, with my learner's permit, I was getting the paper out of the paper box, and all I saw was a spider drop from the paper so with out thinking, I just out of the van that I was driving. I had not put it in park, and if it wasn't for Steven, I would have been ran over. All because I though a spider was on me. Come to find out it was a dead spider, but in my mind, all I saw was spider and had to get away.

The last few weeks, I have been in my room and have found several spiders. Last night, I was reading in bed, and felt like something was crawling on me. Behold, it was a spider. I freaked out, especially when I was trying to kill it the little bugger would not die. It is extremely hard to kill a spider on your bed. The bed is too soft and when you put something on the spider it does smash it. I ended up taking my book that I had and putting it on top of the spider and then sliding the book up and down until the dang thing was dead. Yes, the spider was dead, but my mind played tricks on me the rest of the night. I felt like the whole night something was crawling on me. It was awful. I really need to try and get out my fear of spiders, and spray my room. Peppermint oil is supposed to help.

--Rue.