Monday, November 3, 2014
Procrastinator Anonymous
It's 12:48AM, and I am just finishing up two exams, a follow up discussion question, and a discussion question. It was all due by 12:30AM. Now, the exam was opened on October 30th and both the discussion questions have been open all week. I wasn't even going to do the discussion question since I thought that the exams was going to take long than expected.
As you all know I am entering my seventh or eighth year of doing college work, you would think that I would have learned now how not to PROCRASTINATE, but I haven't. I am going to have a big test on not procrastinating here in the next two weeks. In two weeks, I have a 8 to 10 page research paper and a book review due on the same weekend. This is the same weekend I am going to be in Virginia without access to internet. Also during this time, I will have my regular work load for all my other classes. Now, I will have to see how I do. The Paper and Book Review are a huge portion of my grade, so I have to do well. I obviously cannot wait to the last minute to do them. Before I leave Friday November 14 to go to Virginia, they both need to be turned in. I guess the next two weeks are going to be a tough one.
Now, all I have to do is start reading this book, at least a couple of chapters a night, and write a half a page or one page a day on my research paper, and I should be fine. See I know what to do, but will I do it. What is probably going to happen is that I will spend the Thursday November 13, which is my day off of work, and write the Research paper, and I will probably end up reading the book on the way to Virginia, and write the review either while I am in VA or on my way home, and submit it on the way home, which I have done a few times before.
Wish me luck.
Thursday, October 16, 2014
I HATE ELECTION YEARS!!!
It's an election year, and as election day is coming, I am growing sick and tried of it. I wish it was over already. I hate seeing the ads on television bashing each campaign. I cannot turn on the radio or television without seeing one. Why can't they just run campaigns without all the candidate bashing? Tell us what you are "planning" to do for us, not what the other candidate has done in the past. I guarantee that they are people that don't vote for a certain candidate because of what another candidate has said.
I hate all the wasteful propaganda that litter our mailboxes and yards. This to me is a waste. When I received an ad through the mail, you know what I do. I get rid of it. I am tried of all this junk mail.
Millions of dollars wasted to get elected into office. Think of what could be done with that money instead of the ads. They could help the hungry or assist people who have been hit hard by the economy that some helped get this way. I can see better uses for this money than buying a thirty second or less spot on television that costs millions to produce.
This doesn't turn me off for voting. I am grateful that I get the right to vote. Many women, as Elizabeth Cady Stanton, Susan B. Anthony, Lucy Burns, Alice Paul, and many more, fought for my right to vote, and if I had been born back before 1920, I wouldn't have had that. So I exercise my right to vote. I am going to vote based on my own research. I do not associate with any particular party. I vote with my heart. This may be silly of me, but I see what they are promising, and if they are an incumbent, I look at their record and what they have accomplished, that's how I decide who I am voting for. I think parties should be scrapped. I believe George Washington, even didn't believe in political parties.
Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.
I hate all the wasteful propaganda that litter our mailboxes and yards. This to me is a waste. When I received an ad through the mail, you know what I do. I get rid of it. I am tried of all this junk mail.
Millions of dollars wasted to get elected into office. Think of what could be done with that money instead of the ads. They could help the hungry or assist people who have been hit hard by the economy that some helped get this way. I can see better uses for this money than buying a thirty second or less spot on television that costs millions to produce.
This doesn't turn me off for voting. I am grateful that I get the right to vote. Many women, as Elizabeth Cady Stanton, Susan B. Anthony, Lucy Burns, Alice Paul, and many more, fought for my right to vote, and if I had been born back before 1920, I wouldn't have had that. So I exercise my right to vote. I am going to vote based on my own research. I do not associate with any particular party. I vote with my heart. This may be silly of me, but I see what they are promising, and if they are an incumbent, I look at their record and what they have accomplished, that's how I decide who I am voting for. I think parties should be scrapped. I believe George Washington, even didn't believe in political parties.
Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
MAMAW
The other day I synced an old email address to my new phone, which I forgot that had all my old contact synced to it from college. On my phone it has two people that I called the most, and could you guess who one of them was?
MAMAW!
She has been gone for over 2 years, and it shows you how much I talked to her. If you knew me in college, I was on the phone with her all the time. If she hadn't heard from me by noon, she was calling me. If I couldn't get ahold of her, I was calling Leslie, the boys, or Aunt Sue to see if they had heard from her. One of my fears while I was in college was that she would fall in the house, and couldn't' get up. She would be all alone. I was also afraid, knowing that she was aging, that she would pass away and I wouldn't get to say my goodbye.
As most of you all know, she pretty much raised me. From the time I was 5 years old, when my mom died, she became my mom. She never took mom's place. She didn't give birth to me, but she was my Mother. I was lucky that I had an amazing woman to look up to in life. We joke saying that were becoming like Mamaw more and more each day. But if I am half the woman she was, then I am okay with that. She was hardworking, headstrong, and just plain strong. She outlived two of her three children and her husband. She helped raised all three of her grandchildren and her two great-grandchildren. She was even helping with Lily. I am sad that Lily will not get to know this wonderful strong woman, but she will know who Mamaw was and how much she meant. She was our family's rock. But more importantly she was my best friend.
I miss her everyday, but I know she is watching over me.
--Rue.
MAMAW!
She has been gone for over 2 years, and it shows you how much I talked to her. If you knew me in college, I was on the phone with her all the time. If she hadn't heard from me by noon, she was calling me. If I couldn't get ahold of her, I was calling Leslie, the boys, or Aunt Sue to see if they had heard from her. One of my fears while I was in college was that she would fall in the house, and couldn't' get up. She would be all alone. I was also afraid, knowing that she was aging, that she would pass away and I wouldn't get to say my goodbye.
As most of you all know, she pretty much raised me. From the time I was 5 years old, when my mom died, she became my mom. She never took mom's place. She didn't give birth to me, but she was my Mother. I was lucky that I had an amazing woman to look up to in life. We joke saying that were becoming like Mamaw more and more each day. But if I am half the woman she was, then I am okay with that. She was hardworking, headstrong, and just plain strong. She outlived two of her three children and her husband. She helped raised all three of her grandchildren and her two great-grandchildren. She was even helping with Lily. I am sad that Lily will not get to know this wonderful strong woman, but she will know who Mamaw was and how much she meant. She was our family's rock. But more importantly she was my best friend.
I miss her everyday, but I know she is watching over me.
--Rue.
Sunday, September 14, 2014
Cute Plus Size Work out Clothes
I have been working on my health her lately, and went to a local store to look at there workout clothes. Being a woman, I want to wear cute workout clothes. When I went to the store they had NOTHING in my size. Yes, I am plus size, and working on getting healthier. But the biggest size I saw was an XL. Why wouldn't they have cute plus size work out clothes? I don't want to have to wear sweat pants all the time or men's work out clothes. I just don't understand.
Friday, September 12, 2014
45 pounds lighter.
Yesterday, I stepped on the scale for the first time in almost a year. I knew that I had lost some weight, but I did not know how much I weighed. I don't typically weight myself on a regular basis for I have learned that the number on the scale doesn't mean anything. I base on losing weight on how I feel and how my clothes fit. On Wednesday, I put on a pair of pants that I put on back in July, and they were too tight that I couldn't wear them. I put them on Wednesday, and they fit, and felt a little lose. I have been exercising more and not eating as much.
From the last time back in November until Wednesday, I have lost around 15 more pounds and kept it off. Right now I am the smallest I have been since my freshmen year of college. I am about 15 pounds from one of my goals, and then about 50 pounds from my overall goal. From November 2011, I have lost a total of 45 pounds and kept it off (which is amazing to me). Since I don't weigh on a regular basis, I could have lost more, but the weight from November 2011 is what I have to go off of.
Some goals that I am waiting to accomplish here soon:
Thank everyone who has given me encouragement. Even telling me that I look like I am losing is an encourage for me.
Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.
From the last time back in November until Wednesday, I have lost around 15 more pounds and kept it off. Right now I am the smallest I have been since my freshmen year of college. I am about 15 pounds from one of my goals, and then about 50 pounds from my overall goal. From November 2011, I have lost a total of 45 pounds and kept it off (which is amazing to me). Since I don't weigh on a regular basis, I could have lost more, but the weight from November 2011 is what I have to go off of.
Some goals that I am waiting to accomplish here soon:
- Run a mile in 12 minutes. I just started walking, and I can walk a mile in 22 minutes with a 3 year old coming with me.
- By next summer, I want to participate in a 5K.
Thank everyone who has given me encouragement. Even telling me that I look like I am losing is an encourage for me.
Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.
30 pounds down, 80 more to go... Oct\Nov 2013
This post was posted on my tumblr at ruesworld@tumblr.com back in October/November of last year, but I thought I would share it.
30 pounds down, 80 more to go...
First of all, I want to thank all of my facebook friends who commented or liked when I posted this following status…
I’m am about 80 pounds from my goal weight… I know it my be a long time but since November 2011, I have lost about 30 pounds and kept it off…. this is a huge deal for me… especially since then my mamaw passed away and I am an emotional eater… When my dad died I put 30 pounds on in about 2 months… So I consider it an accomplishment…
Now I am going to explain myself a little more and how I done it.
First, I am NOT on a diet. I am not following anything, and this is part of why I think I am losing. Yes, it may have taken over a year and a half to shed 30 pounds, but I am doing it and keeping it off. If I am not dieting then what the heck am I doing?
I still eat what I love, but I am not constantly snacking. I am not eating as much. I also have cut sweet tea out. I pretty much drink water all the time. (this really isn’t that big of a change most of the time I would drink water instead of tea anyways)
This biggest change is LILY! She keeps me going all the time. From the time she wakes up in the morning until her mom gets home at 4. She’s is on the go. Even though I am not actually working out, I am getting exercise. Lily was born in August 2011 and I hit my highest weight in November 2011.
I know this is going to sound horrible, but I think it has something to do with it. My mamaw constantly critized me about my weight. She kept after me to not eat as much and to exercise. I don’t have her hear to do that anymore. I think that I kept shoving food into my mouth to piss her off, but I really wasn’t hurting anyone but my self. I know she was going this because she loved me and wanted me healthy. Also I think she is up in heaven helping me now with losing the weight.
30 pounds in a year and a half. Maybe not sound like a lot, but for me I have been struggleing with my weight for most of my life. I was diagnosed with high blood pressure at the age of 5 and I was overweight for my age. I am a stress eater. When my dad died back in 2002, I gained 30 pounds in 2 months. I did lost about 60 pounds my freshmen year in college, but by the time I graduated I had put it all back on. Now, I have lost 30 pounds and KEPT IT OFF!!! I had a major death in my family, my mamaw, who raised me, and I was able to still keep the weight off.
Another thing, I see my sister and best friend, Kyla, and I see how she has gotten healthy. I was there when she started her lifestyle change. She is truly an inspiration to me. I may not tell you that Kyla, but you are.
This may seem shocking, but I want to run a 5K by the end of summer first of fall. I want to run the Color Me Rad 5K in September. It’s close to where I live and it just sounds AWESOME!!! Here’s a link about it if you want to check it out to see if there is a race close to you.
http://www.colormerad.com/about.html
I am not trying to be skinny as a bean pole. I am just wanting to be healthy. When I was 18 years old, I wanted to be under 150 pounds, but my doctor at the time looked me in the eye, and told me that I would look sick if I weight that much. I just want to be healthy. I don’t want to tell you my specific goal because I don’t want to tell you all my current weight. I am not comfortable in telling you all that, but it will be under 200 pounds.
Thanks for the encouragement.
Love,
Rue.
I’m am about 80 pounds from my goal weight… I know it my be a long time but since November 2011, I have lost about 30 pounds and kept it off…. this is a huge deal for me… especially since then my mamaw passed away and I am an emotional eater… When my dad died I put 30 pounds on in about 2 months… So I consider it an accomplishment…
Now I am going to explain myself a little more and how I done it.
First, I am NOT on a diet. I am not following anything, and this is part of why I think I am losing. Yes, it may have taken over a year and a half to shed 30 pounds, but I am doing it and keeping it off. If I am not dieting then what the heck am I doing?
I still eat what I love, but I am not constantly snacking. I am not eating as much. I also have cut sweet tea out. I pretty much drink water all the time. (this really isn’t that big of a change most of the time I would drink water instead of tea anyways)
This biggest change is LILY! She keeps me going all the time. From the time she wakes up in the morning until her mom gets home at 4. She’s is on the go. Even though I am not actually working out, I am getting exercise. Lily was born in August 2011 and I hit my highest weight in November 2011.
I know this is going to sound horrible, but I think it has something to do with it. My mamaw constantly critized me about my weight. She kept after me to not eat as much and to exercise. I don’t have her hear to do that anymore. I think that I kept shoving food into my mouth to piss her off, but I really wasn’t hurting anyone but my self. I know she was going this because she loved me and wanted me healthy. Also I think she is up in heaven helping me now with losing the weight.
30 pounds in a year and a half. Maybe not sound like a lot, but for me I have been struggleing with my weight for most of my life. I was diagnosed with high blood pressure at the age of 5 and I was overweight for my age. I am a stress eater. When my dad died back in 2002, I gained 30 pounds in 2 months. I did lost about 60 pounds my freshmen year in college, but by the time I graduated I had put it all back on. Now, I have lost 30 pounds and KEPT IT OFF!!! I had a major death in my family, my mamaw, who raised me, and I was able to still keep the weight off.
Another thing, I see my sister and best friend, Kyla, and I see how she has gotten healthy. I was there when she started her lifestyle change. She is truly an inspiration to me. I may not tell you that Kyla, but you are.
This may seem shocking, but I want to run a 5K by the end of summer first of fall. I want to run the Color Me Rad 5K in September. It’s close to where I live and it just sounds AWESOME!!! Here’s a link about it if you want to check it out to see if there is a race close to you.
http://www.colormerad.com/about.html
I am not trying to be skinny as a bean pole. I am just wanting to be healthy. When I was 18 years old, I wanted to be under 150 pounds, but my doctor at the time looked me in the eye, and told me that I would look sick if I weight that much. I just want to be healthy. I don’t want to tell you my specific goal because I don’t want to tell you all my current weight. I am not comfortable in telling you all that, but it will be under 200 pounds.
Thanks for the encouragement.
Love,
Rue.
Tuesday, July 8, 2014
Recovering Pack Rat Diaries
Both my mom and dad were pack rats, and so was my mamaw. I am one too, and when they passed I inherited their stuff... When they died I am was not ready to purge anything they owned. I felt at that time I needed to keep it because it owned by them. Let's just say I have a lot of stuff.
This past week, Les and I started going through our stuff. I got rid of a lot. I am finally to the point that I can get rid of things that my mom, dad, and mamaw owned. I am mentally ready. I have gotten to the point, that their things will not keep them alive. It's my memories of them that will. Now, I am not getting rid of everything of theirs. If I have a memory of it with them, I am keeping it. But a lot of the stuff that I am getting rid of were things, that they either never used or just random stuff that I had decided to keep and really shouldn't have. Most of the stuff has been in boxed up for at least a year, with some of it being boxed up for over 5 years. It's not getting used, and some I don't remember it at all.
I kept all of the pictures, and if you know anything about my mom, she took pictures all the time. She had over 53 FULL photo albums and that's not including all the pictures that are loose and framed. I can never get rid of those.
A lot of the stuff I got rid of, was things that I had kept from high school and college. When I was in college, I had kept ads for things that I went to, and if I had no memory of it, I did not keep it.
Some things, I was forced to get rid of. Only because it had been damaged while being stored. You know I am not sad about that because I feel if I was meant to keep it then it wouldn't have been damaged.
This has been a work in progress, and I have worked really hard on this. I am still a work in progress.
--Rue.
This past week, Les and I started going through our stuff. I got rid of a lot. I am finally to the point that I can get rid of things that my mom, dad, and mamaw owned. I am mentally ready. I have gotten to the point, that their things will not keep them alive. It's my memories of them that will. Now, I am not getting rid of everything of theirs. If I have a memory of it with them, I am keeping it. But a lot of the stuff that I am getting rid of were things, that they either never used or just random stuff that I had decided to keep and really shouldn't have. Most of the stuff has been in boxed up for at least a year, with some of it being boxed up for over 5 years. It's not getting used, and some I don't remember it at all.
I kept all of the pictures, and if you know anything about my mom, she took pictures all the time. She had over 53 FULL photo albums and that's not including all the pictures that are loose and framed. I can never get rid of those.
A lot of the stuff I got rid of, was things that I had kept from high school and college. When I was in college, I had kept ads for things that I went to, and if I had no memory of it, I did not keep it.
Some things, I was forced to get rid of. Only because it had been damaged while being stored. You know I am not sad about that because I feel if I was meant to keep it then it wouldn't have been damaged.
This has been a work in progress, and I have worked really hard on this. I am still a work in progress.
--Rue.
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
Bathroom Door.
While in college, if you wanted something advertised really well, you put it on the back of the bathroom stall door. Everyone has to go to the bathroom, and what does everyone see the back of the bathroom door. I know I always look at the door.
Last Sunday when coming back from Asheville, we had to make a pit stop at the rest stop right across the Tennessee state line. On the back of the door, since it was a state funded rest area you would expect some ad about visiting Dollywood or many other attractions in Tennessee, but in this stall it wasn't. It was about sex trafficking in Tennessee, and informing us that it is real in Tennessee. It was put out by http://stopsextraffickingintn.com/ and it informed you what are the signs of a person who is being trafficked. I had a smile on my face that my home state is informing the public through the bathroom door about a thing that I feel most people do not realize is happening in their neck of the woods. If this ad could help one person then I believe its done its job.
--Rue.
Last Sunday when coming back from Asheville, we had to make a pit stop at the rest stop right across the Tennessee state line. On the back of the door, since it was a state funded rest area you would expect some ad about visiting Dollywood or many other attractions in Tennessee, but in this stall it wasn't. It was about sex trafficking in Tennessee, and informing us that it is real in Tennessee. It was put out by http://stopsextraffickingintn.com/ and it informed you what are the signs of a person who is being trafficked. I had a smile on my face that my home state is informing the public through the bathroom door about a thing that I feel most people do not realize is happening in their neck of the woods. If this ad could help one person then I believe its done its job.
--Rue.
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Busting my Tire and what follows.
Friday evening, I was meeting Leslie and Lily at Pizza Plus to go get supper before I had to go to work that night. As I was pulling into the parking lot, I turned too wide, and knew I was going to hit the curb in the parking lot. Instead of stopping and backing up to correct my mistake, I pressed the gas deciding to go over the curb. BIG MISTAKE! As soon as I made contact with the curb I hear a big gush. I am thinking I tore out my whole front end of my car. I make it to a parking space, get out and scream to Leslie, "I just fucked up my car." Leslie was calm and I don't really remember what she said. At that point I saw that it looked like I just busted my tire possibly bending my rim. So we go on in and eat, which I am stressed and upset, so I don't eat a lot...
30 minutes later...
We go back to the parking lot to put on my spare tire, which I did not know I had. I haven't needed it for the 10 months I have owned this car. I did know that I had a jack and wrench to change my tire because Steven changed my breaks with them in Auto Zone parking lot back in December. So I was determined to change this tire on my own. I had never really had to change my tires. Steven was always the one to do it. I knew how, but just never did it. I started loosing up the bolt, while Leslie and Lily supervised. I stood up for one second to take a breather, and some guy with out asking if we needed help, just jumped in and started where I had left off. I am grateful for his help, but I so wanted to change this tire on my own. I didn't need the help. We had to change my tire on incline and I had pulled the e-brake, but my car once he started jacking it up started to roll backward and fell off the jack. Thankful that now was got hurt. If I would have been changing the tire and this happened, I would of been scared to death. After this we got things out of my trunk and put behind my back wheels so it wouldn't roll backwards anymore. I guess carrying a lot of junk comes in handy sometimes.
10 or so minutes later...
The spare is on, and the car is let down off the jack. THE SPARE GOES FLAT! Great, now what? I have to be at work tonight, and all the tire places are closed. So Leslie talks to the manager, and tells him the situation, and we leave the car there for the night. The Spare has just enough air so me can move it to flatter area.
20 minutes later...
I go to talk to Austyn to see if his mom could borrow his car to take me to work. His car gets better gas mileage than Leslie's truck. I walk in covered in grease with a cut on my head. Oh, when I hit the curb I had a pair of sunglasses on my visor that I hit and scratched my head. It wasn't bad just a small scratch. But anyways, he asks if I wrecked my car. So I tell him the whole story.
Long story, I make it to work on time.
Saturday Morning...
Leslie picks me up from work the next working and we go get a tire for my car. I am at this point determined to change this tire on my own. We get back to the parking lot. I change my tire. It takes me a little bit to get my car jack up high enough to take the spare off and get the tire back own. But I do it. I changed my tire all by myself. When I asked Les for advice, she would answer, but she did not touch the tire. I am drenched in sweat and covered with grease, but I changed my tire all on my own. I am proud of myself. I always had the ability, but never had to do it.
My car seemed to be fine. It's out of align. I am lucky nothing major happened.
Sunday...
After I get off work, Leslie texted me to see if I wanted to go to Asheville for the morning. I would be back in time to sleep before working that night. I don't go to bed before noon anyways for if I do, I will be awake at around 3 or 4 and can't go back to sleep. When I get home, we head off to Asheville in my car since it gets better gas mileage.
As we are heading over the mountains, I get a real bad vibration my car, and I can tell it is coming from the front end. So 15 miles from Asheville, I pull into a gas station to check my air pressure of my tires. At this point the vibration was so bad it was vibrating my whole body and was hard to drive. My back two tires are low, so I put air in them. Les takes over driving. It's still vibrating really bad, so it wasn't low tire pressure. Les thinks I messed up a tire rod (or something like that). We make it to the next exit, and pull over. We are trying to find a way home that doesn't involve the interstate. A young man, probably around Steven's age, pulled behind us, and asked if we needed some help. Les told him what was going on. He looked at the tire, and he wiggled the tire. He discovered that the bolt were loose. My tire was coming off. Thank God, he came along. I couldn't image what would have happened if my tire would have come off while driving. He was a God send.
I know that I tightened those bolt as tight as I could get them. But he said that if they were stripped they would sometime go on and think they are tightened, and they come loose. So I have to keep an eye on them to see if that is the case. I do have to admit, I may have not gotten them tightened enough. Didn't get his name, but not enough Thanks could go to him. Like I said, I have no clue what would have happened if my tire would have come off while driving., but I don't think it would have been good.
We turn back and end up going to Asheville, and have a great time. We come home and then I go to bed to get sleep for my work that night. Now, I check them before I get in the car to leave to make sure they are tight. Until I find out whether or not it was my error or the bolts are just stripped.
--Rue.
30 minutes later...
We go back to the parking lot to put on my spare tire, which I did not know I had. I haven't needed it for the 10 months I have owned this car. I did know that I had a jack and wrench to change my tire because Steven changed my breaks with them in Auto Zone parking lot back in December. So I was determined to change this tire on my own. I had never really had to change my tires. Steven was always the one to do it. I knew how, but just never did it. I started loosing up the bolt, while Leslie and Lily supervised. I stood up for one second to take a breather, and some guy with out asking if we needed help, just jumped in and started where I had left off. I am grateful for his help, but I so wanted to change this tire on my own. I didn't need the help. We had to change my tire on incline and I had pulled the e-brake, but my car once he started jacking it up started to roll backward and fell off the jack. Thankful that now was got hurt. If I would have been changing the tire and this happened, I would of been scared to death. After this we got things out of my trunk and put behind my back wheels so it wouldn't roll backwards anymore. I guess carrying a lot of junk comes in handy sometimes.
10 or so minutes later...
The spare is on, and the car is let down off the jack. THE SPARE GOES FLAT! Great, now what? I have to be at work tonight, and all the tire places are closed. So Leslie talks to the manager, and tells him the situation, and we leave the car there for the night. The Spare has just enough air so me can move it to flatter area.
20 minutes later...
I go to talk to Austyn to see if his mom could borrow his car to take me to work. His car gets better gas mileage than Leslie's truck. I walk in covered in grease with a cut on my head. Oh, when I hit the curb I had a pair of sunglasses on my visor that I hit and scratched my head. It wasn't bad just a small scratch. But anyways, he asks if I wrecked my car. So I tell him the whole story.
Long story, I make it to work on time.
Saturday Morning...
Leslie picks me up from work the next working and we go get a tire for my car. I am at this point determined to change this tire on my own. We get back to the parking lot. I change my tire. It takes me a little bit to get my car jack up high enough to take the spare off and get the tire back own. But I do it. I changed my tire all by myself. When I asked Les for advice, she would answer, but she did not touch the tire. I am drenched in sweat and covered with grease, but I changed my tire all on my own. I am proud of myself. I always had the ability, but never had to do it.
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| Photo Cred to Leslie. |
Sunday...
After I get off work, Leslie texted me to see if I wanted to go to Asheville for the morning. I would be back in time to sleep before working that night. I don't go to bed before noon anyways for if I do, I will be awake at around 3 or 4 and can't go back to sleep. When I get home, we head off to Asheville in my car since it gets better gas mileage.
As we are heading over the mountains, I get a real bad vibration my car, and I can tell it is coming from the front end. So 15 miles from Asheville, I pull into a gas station to check my air pressure of my tires. At this point the vibration was so bad it was vibrating my whole body and was hard to drive. My back two tires are low, so I put air in them. Les takes over driving. It's still vibrating really bad, so it wasn't low tire pressure. Les thinks I messed up a tire rod (or something like that). We make it to the next exit, and pull over. We are trying to find a way home that doesn't involve the interstate. A young man, probably around Steven's age, pulled behind us, and asked if we needed some help. Les told him what was going on. He looked at the tire, and he wiggled the tire. He discovered that the bolt were loose. My tire was coming off. Thank God, he came along. I couldn't image what would have happened if my tire would have come off while driving. He was a God send.
I know that I tightened those bolt as tight as I could get them. But he said that if they were stripped they would sometime go on and think they are tightened, and they come loose. So I have to keep an eye on them to see if that is the case. I do have to admit, I may have not gotten them tightened enough. Didn't get his name, but not enough Thanks could go to him. Like I said, I have no clue what would have happened if my tire would have come off while driving., but I don't think it would have been good.
We turn back and end up going to Asheville, and have a great time. We come home and then I go to bed to get sleep for my work that night. Now, I check them before I get in the car to leave to make sure they are tight. Until I find out whether or not it was my error or the bolts are just stripped.
--Rue.
Friday, June 27, 2014
Rue's Randomness of the Day
Ever had a hard time peeling a banana and end up bruising it. Peel in from the bottom. It works. It's the Monkey Way.
--Rue.
--Rue.
Big Change
Here within the next few months, there are several big changes happening in my family. I can't go into much detail because I don't want to jinx anything, but as of right now, everything seems to be falling into place as we are starting to put things into motion. I ask for you all to pray for me and my family as this change is happening, and when it happens and everything has been in place, I will let you all know.
Peaceful and Happy thoughts,
--Rue.
Peaceful and Happy thoughts,
--Rue.
Thursday, June 26, 2014
I love rainy days.
As the title shows, I love rainy days especially here lately. I was driving down the road today and noticed a pond in one of the farms that I pass every day, is almost dried up. We are in so much need of rain. Here, it seems we get a little. but it's not enough to deal with the need. I am not sure if we are technically in a drought, but as the pond shows, we are needing rain.
Besides needing the rain, I love to play in the rain. When I was in college, one of the many fond memories I have with my best friend, Kyla, is playing in the rain during one summer. During this we laid down in the middle of our street, which wasn't busy, and just laid there and let the rain fall.
A rainy day for me is perfect for staying in the house curling up with a book. I guess that's the book worm in me. What am I saying I can read a book anywhere, but I love hearing the rain on the roof while reading. Follow my reading adventures on my book blog http://ruesbookworld.blogspot.com/ .
In the summers I love rainy days for they tend to be cooler than sunny days. Don't get me wrong I love beautiful sunny days, but during the summer months, they are almost get too hot to be out in them.
Peaceful and Happy thoughts,
--Rue.
Besides needing the rain, I love to play in the rain. When I was in college, one of the many fond memories I have with my best friend, Kyla, is playing in the rain during one summer. During this we laid down in the middle of our street, which wasn't busy, and just laid there and let the rain fall.
A rainy day for me is perfect for staying in the house curling up with a book. I guess that's the book worm in me. What am I saying I can read a book anywhere, but I love hearing the rain on the roof while reading. Follow my reading adventures on my book blog http://ruesbookworld.blogspot.com/ .
In the summers I love rainy days for they tend to be cooler than sunny days. Don't get me wrong I love beautiful sunny days, but during the summer months, they are almost get too hot to be out in them.
Peaceful and Happy thoughts,
--Rue.
Thursday, June 19, 2014
Learning to Cook.
I know how to cook sort of. I had to learn to cook a lot of things with my job when I was working on the weekends, for I had to cook two meals a day. I am still learning. Les is slowly teaching me how to cook. I know how to make BBQ pork and can even make BBQ from scratch. I can even use the grill. I made cornbread the other night. I didn't let it get as brown as I like it, but it was fine cause all I made it for was for cornbread and milk.
One thing that I haven't gotten the hang of is making gravy. For some reason I cannot get it to turn out. I don't know what I am doing. The only way I can describe it taking like dirt when I am finished with it. It's not suppose to taste like that. I haven't even started to tackle biscuits yet either.
When I was younger, I use to burn everything, which according to my family my mom did the same thing. Apparently when I was younger I manage to burn Austyn's birthday cake, but I don't remember doing that. The worst was burning a hot pocket in the microwave. How can someone do that. I have manage to not burn anything in a while. I may have overcook chicken but it wasn't burnt. That changed last night. I managed to burn potatoes that was going to be mashed potatoes. Really, how can I burn potatoes that were boiling in water? Let's just say we didn't have mash potatoes last night. Then when we went to cut the ham it was burnt as well, but in my defense I was told if I put it on low in the crock pot that it would be fine. I wouldn't consider the ham really burnt. Unlike the potatoes the ham was still edible. Actually it was pretty good. Not the best ham that I have had, but it was still good. I guess when still learning that you will still burn things.
--Rue.
One thing that I haven't gotten the hang of is making gravy. For some reason I cannot get it to turn out. I don't know what I am doing. The only way I can describe it taking like dirt when I am finished with it. It's not suppose to taste like that. I haven't even started to tackle biscuits yet either.
When I was younger, I use to burn everything, which according to my family my mom did the same thing. Apparently when I was younger I manage to burn Austyn's birthday cake, but I don't remember doing that. The worst was burning a hot pocket in the microwave. How can someone do that. I have manage to not burn anything in a while. I may have overcook chicken but it wasn't burnt. That changed last night. I managed to burn potatoes that was going to be mashed potatoes. Really, how can I burn potatoes that were boiling in water? Let's just say we didn't have mash potatoes last night. Then when we went to cut the ham it was burnt as well, but in my defense I was told if I put it on low in the crock pot that it would be fine. I wouldn't consider the ham really burnt. Unlike the potatoes the ham was still edible. Actually it was pretty good. Not the best ham that I have had, but it was still good. I guess when still learning that you will still burn things.
--Rue.
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Losing a Love One is NEVER easy.
Losing someone you love is never easy. I have lost many love ones in my 25 years on this earth, and none of them have gotten any easier. What has gotten easier is coping. I have learned how I cope the easiest, and deal with my cycle of depression and grief. This is different with everyone.
Just let them know that you are there for them, and don't smother them, let them have time to grieve alone. When my dad passed away, I had a couple of people that would not let me out of my sight. I needed that time alone to process. Yes, I was 13 years old, but I just wanted some alone time. I don't know if they though I was going to off and hurt myself or what but they were constantly there. If they need a shoulder to cry on, then be that shoulder. If they are wanting to talk ask no questions and let them talk. Yes, I have had to deal with losing a love one, but I never tell them that I know what they are going through. Yes, you have lost a love one, but the situation is really different.
--Rue.
Just let them know that you are there for them, and don't smother them, let them have time to grieve alone. When my dad passed away, I had a couple of people that would not let me out of my sight. I needed that time alone to process. Yes, I was 13 years old, but I just wanted some alone time. I don't know if they though I was going to off and hurt myself or what but they were constantly there. If they need a shoulder to cry on, then be that shoulder. If they are wanting to talk ask no questions and let them talk. Yes, I have had to deal with losing a love one, but I never tell them that I know what they are going through. Yes, you have lost a love one, but the situation is really different.
--Rue.
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Dealing with Tooth Pain because of My DISTRUST of dentists!
I broke off a tooth a while back, and at the time, it did not give me problems. Now, it's starting to give me problems, and hurts a lot. I need to go to the dentist, but I have a problem with going to the dentist. First when I was younger, when I first had to have a filling, the dentist ended up having to drill deeper and cause my teeth to be sensitive. So from that point on, I have been dealing with sensitive tooth pain. That started me losing my trust in dentist. Then when I was a little older, around the time I was losing my final baby teeth, the same dentist (the same dentist because due to the insurance I had he was the only one who would take it, and I couldn't go out of town for dentist) decided to pull the last two baby teeth. I at that time had pulled ALL my baby teeth on my own. My dad or anyone in my family had not helped me pull them out. My first tooth I pulled out with the strap of a Little Mermaid purse. So I go in to get these teeth pulled which I tried to pull on my own before, but they were not loose. Already not wanting to get these pulled, I go back. So they numb my mouth before they do anything. I have to have some kind of treatment on my molars, I can't remember what it was. Then after that is when they are pulling my teeth. Guess what the numbness had started to go away. Yeah! So I had two teeth pulled with the numbing wearing off. At least point, I would only go to this dentist when I had to. I got away with going to the dentist only once a year or so, basically when my insurance required me too ( my insurance at the time was through the state and if I didn't go, I could have lost my insurance).
Now, it's been a little bit since I have been to the dentist. I have lost count on how many YEARS it has been, and I know that I need to go, but I don't trust any dentist. Another reason is that I don't really have the extra cash to go at this point. Hopefully in August I will be able to go. Yes, I do have dental insurance. BUT, with the amount of work that I would need to have done, would cost a lot. Right now, my pay check has to go to other things. Dealing with the pain is my only option right now.
--Rue.
Now, it's been a little bit since I have been to the dentist. I have lost count on how many YEARS it has been, and I know that I need to go, but I don't trust any dentist. Another reason is that I don't really have the extra cash to go at this point. Hopefully in August I will be able to go. Yes, I do have dental insurance. BUT, with the amount of work that I would need to have done, would cost a lot. Right now, my pay check has to go to other things. Dealing with the pain is my only option right now.
--Rue.
Friday, June 13, 2014
A Life Update.
What's been going on in my life?
Well, the last few weeks I have found myself being depressed, but it's something that I go through this time of every year. With the anniversary of my dad's and Mamaw's death a month apart, mother's and father's day, and my mom's birthday all within a two month span, I start the grieving a little and become depressed. I tend to write more darker. And become a recluse. Well, I a recluse all year long, and it's something I need to work on. I only have a few friends outside of my family. My best friends are all out of state, one is in New York and I haven't seen her in almost two years and the other one moved to Virginia for the summer. I find it hard to make friends. When I moved to college, it took me several months to make friends.
As you know, I moved to Kentucky for four years for college, and I fell in love with the area I lived in. Several of my friends who stayed there told me I should stay, but at the time, I needed to be home. I knew mamaw was health was declining and Les's was pregnant with Lily. I felt at the time I needed to be home in Tennessee than staying in Kentucky. Now, I feel it was sort of a mistake. I felt this during the summer after graduating when I was struggling to find a job. I find myself just wanting to pack up my room and move to Kentucky where several of my friends still live from college. Actually, I find myself thinking about moving more and more here lately. If I had the money and a job set up there, I would probably move there in a heart beat. But I am broke and would need a job there. There is a bigger reason that I have not just packed up and moved back to Kentucky. LILY! If Les and Lily would move with me and I could find a job there, I would move in a heart beat.
Speaking of Lily, she is getting so big. She will be three in August, and I can't believe how time flies. She is such an entertainer, and funny. I don't know where she gets some of the stuff she comes up with.
A month ago, spring semester came to a close. This semester was harder than the first semester. I was taking 13 credit hours, with two of those being online, which was the first online classes I ever took. I learned I like being in a physical classroom than online. So next semester I will be back down to part time status because I cannot not take classes during the day because I watch Lily during the day. I do have a class that I would love to take this next semester and I am currently enrolled in the class. It is though looking like that I will have to drop it since Lily will not be able to enroll into head start until next year. Tennessee had just moved the date up for when children to start head start, and Lily missed it by 11 days. I blogged about my first semester back that I made all As and Bs, and this semester I made all As and Bs again. The two Bs, came in my online classes. I am end up having to take a couple more classes online., but I probably will avoid taking online classes unless it's a have to case.
Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.
Well, the last few weeks I have found myself being depressed, but it's something that I go through this time of every year. With the anniversary of my dad's and Mamaw's death a month apart, mother's and father's day, and my mom's birthday all within a two month span, I start the grieving a little and become depressed. I tend to write more darker. And become a recluse. Well, I a recluse all year long, and it's something I need to work on. I only have a few friends outside of my family. My best friends are all out of state, one is in New York and I haven't seen her in almost two years and the other one moved to Virginia for the summer. I find it hard to make friends. When I moved to college, it took me several months to make friends.
As you know, I moved to Kentucky for four years for college, and I fell in love with the area I lived in. Several of my friends who stayed there told me I should stay, but at the time, I needed to be home. I knew mamaw was health was declining and Les's was pregnant with Lily. I felt at the time I needed to be home in Tennessee than staying in Kentucky. Now, I feel it was sort of a mistake. I felt this during the summer after graduating when I was struggling to find a job. I find myself just wanting to pack up my room and move to Kentucky where several of my friends still live from college. Actually, I find myself thinking about moving more and more here lately. If I had the money and a job set up there, I would probably move there in a heart beat. But I am broke and would need a job there. There is a bigger reason that I have not just packed up and moved back to Kentucky. LILY! If Les and Lily would move with me and I could find a job there, I would move in a heart beat.
Speaking of Lily, she is getting so big. She will be three in August, and I can't believe how time flies. She is such an entertainer, and funny. I don't know where she gets some of the stuff she comes up with.
A month ago, spring semester came to a close. This semester was harder than the first semester. I was taking 13 credit hours, with two of those being online, which was the first online classes I ever took. I learned I like being in a physical classroom than online. So next semester I will be back down to part time status because I cannot not take classes during the day because I watch Lily during the day. I do have a class that I would love to take this next semester and I am currently enrolled in the class. It is though looking like that I will have to drop it since Lily will not be able to enroll into head start until next year. Tennessee had just moved the date up for when children to start head start, and Lily missed it by 11 days. I blogged about my first semester back that I made all As and Bs, and this semester I made all As and Bs again. The two Bs, came in my online classes. I am end up having to take a couple more classes online., but I probably will avoid taking online classes unless it's a have to case.
Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.
Ugg... Spiders.
I absolutely hate spiders. I am actually I am afraid of them. It's an irrational fear. I have no clue why I have a fear of spiders. When I was 15, with my learner's permit, I was getting the paper out of the paper box, and all I saw was a spider drop from the paper so with out thinking, I just out of the van that I was driving. I had not put it in park, and if it wasn't for Steven, I would have been ran over. All because I though a spider was on me. Come to find out it was a dead spider, but in my mind, all I saw was spider and had to get away.
The last few weeks, I have been in my room and have found several spiders. Last night, I was reading in bed, and felt like something was crawling on me. Behold, it was a spider. I freaked out, especially when I was trying to kill it the little bugger would not die. It is extremely hard to kill a spider on your bed. The bed is too soft and when you put something on the spider it does smash it. I ended up taking my book that I had and putting it on top of the spider and then sliding the book up and down until the dang thing was dead. Yes, the spider was dead, but my mind played tricks on me the rest of the night. I felt like the whole night something was crawling on me. It was awful. I really need to try and get out my fear of spiders, and spray my room. Peppermint oil is supposed to help.
--Rue.
The last few weeks, I have been in my room and have found several spiders. Last night, I was reading in bed, and felt like something was crawling on me. Behold, it was a spider. I freaked out, especially when I was trying to kill it the little bugger would not die. It is extremely hard to kill a spider on your bed. The bed is too soft and when you put something on the spider it does smash it. I ended up taking my book that I had and putting it on top of the spider and then sliding the book up and down until the dang thing was dead. Yes, the spider was dead, but my mind played tricks on me the rest of the night. I felt like the whole night something was crawling on me. It was awful. I really need to try and get out my fear of spiders, and spray my room. Peppermint oil is supposed to help.
--Rue.
Thursday, June 12, 2014
Fading Memory.
I was five when my mom passed away, and her memory is fading. I don't remember her voice. I don't remember her hugs. And what I do remember I am not completely sure is my own. I don't know if it's something my family has told me or something I have dreamed about and completely made up. Something I thought for years, I had to ask my Mamaw if I made it up, and she told me that I came to her about it after the funeral. I don't want to bring it up for it's very personal.
Things I do remember about my mom is about the night she entered the hospital and what had happened. I remember waking up to my Mamaw and Aunt Sue saying mom had been taken to the hospital. I remember not going to see my mom while she was in the hospital for several hours because I over heard the doctor's and my dad talking about doing a test on her brain. I thought this test was going to involve them shaving her head, and I did not want to see my mom bald. This test they were talking about was to see if my mom had any brain activity. I didn't know that. I was only 5. I don't remember if I knew my mom was dying. How would you tell a 5 year old that her mom was not going to be there anymore? I do think I knew what death was for at the beginning of the year, I had lost my Papaw, my mom's dad, and earlier in life lost my uncle and my dad's dad. When my mom was taken off life support and her heart stopped beating, my mamaw told me that I ran to the first nurse and told her my mom's heart had stopped, but I don't remember it.
The only part of the funeral I remember is that I was running in and out of the chapel to the family viewing room. Which I never got why the funeral home had a family viewing area for the funeral and you were separated from friends and other family in the chapel. Shouldn't the family be with the other mourners? Didn't get it then and don't get it now. I was running to my family and to my mom's close friend who I referred to as "Granny." Then I got in trouble for it. I do remember my dad getting on to me for it.
I remember a lot of random things from my childhood, and most of the things I remember members of my family don't. But when it comes to my mom, I just don't have those memories. I want to know who my mom was, and how much I am like her. Would she be proud of who I become?
Things I do remember about my mom is about the night she entered the hospital and what had happened. I remember waking up to my Mamaw and Aunt Sue saying mom had been taken to the hospital. I remember not going to see my mom while she was in the hospital for several hours because I over heard the doctor's and my dad talking about doing a test on her brain. I thought this test was going to involve them shaving her head, and I did not want to see my mom bald. This test they were talking about was to see if my mom had any brain activity. I didn't know that. I was only 5. I don't remember if I knew my mom was dying. How would you tell a 5 year old that her mom was not going to be there anymore? I do think I knew what death was for at the beginning of the year, I had lost my Papaw, my mom's dad, and earlier in life lost my uncle and my dad's dad. When my mom was taken off life support and her heart stopped beating, my mamaw told me that I ran to the first nurse and told her my mom's heart had stopped, but I don't remember it.
The only part of the funeral I remember is that I was running in and out of the chapel to the family viewing room. Which I never got why the funeral home had a family viewing area for the funeral and you were separated from friends and other family in the chapel. Shouldn't the family be with the other mourners? Didn't get it then and don't get it now. I was running to my family and to my mom's close friend who I referred to as "Granny." Then I got in trouble for it. I do remember my dad getting on to me for it.
I remember a lot of random things from my childhood, and most of the things I remember members of my family don't. But when it comes to my mom, I just don't have those memories. I want to know who my mom was, and how much I am like her. Would she be proud of who I become?
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
12 years ago...
Today I lost my dad. I can remember it like it was yesterday that Mamaw, Leslie, and Aunt Sue came and got me out of school early and took me to Davy Crocket State Park to tell me that my dad had passed away. It's weird how some parts of that day and week, I can remember very vividly, but I cannot remember the last time I told my dad I loved him or even hugged him. It was probably after talking to him the night before, but I don't remember it.
Through this 12 years, I have had my ups and downs. I know that people say in time it gets easier, and when it's fresh, you don't want to believe it, but it does. I find that I have finally processed my dad's death. For years after his death, on this day I would go into a dark place that I would go off on people that I loved dearly. Thank You Mamaw for dealing with these dark times. I know your watching over me with Mom and Dad now.
With that being said, I will always miss my dad, and I still have those days. I think as I get older and life moments like getting married and have children, I will have those days for your parents are suppose to see you get married and see their grandchildren born. The saddest thing is that I don't know how many stories I will be able to pass down to my children about their grandfather and grandmother for my memories of them are starting to fade.
In Memory of Dad and Mom,
--Jamie
Through this 12 years, I have had my ups and downs. I know that people say in time it gets easier, and when it's fresh, you don't want to believe it, but it does. I find that I have finally processed my dad's death. For years after his death, on this day I would go into a dark place that I would go off on people that I loved dearly. Thank You Mamaw for dealing with these dark times. I know your watching over me with Mom and Dad now.
With that being said, I will always miss my dad, and I still have those days. I think as I get older and life moments like getting married and have children, I will have those days for your parents are suppose to see you get married and see their grandchildren born. The saddest thing is that I don't know how many stories I will be able to pass down to my children about their grandfather and grandmother for my memories of them are starting to fade.
In Memory of Dad and Mom,
--Jamie
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
2014 Goals.
Here are the goals I am waiting to accomplish for the year.
Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.
- Continue to write daily.
- Read at least 25 books for fun
- Maintain making As and Bs in my college classes
- Become a Better Role Model for Lily, Steven, and Austyn
- Get out and make friends.
- Visit Berea. I can't believe I haven't been back since I graduated in 2011.
- Try and see my Best Friend\Sister Kyla. It's will be 2 year in September since I have seen her.
- Save money. (I am currently horrible at)
- Become involved with FMLA at my school.
- Volunteer.
- Try and keep my car and room cleaner.
Peaceful and Happy Thoughts,
--Rue.
Happy New Year!!!
Happy New Year!!! It's 2014.
I hope everyone has a safe New Year, and I hope 2014 is a great year for you all.
Peaceful and Happy thoughts,
--Rue
I hope everyone has a safe New Year, and I hope 2014 is a great year for you all.
Peaceful and Happy thoughts,
--Rue
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